Please restore my sight, O great Ophthalmologist.

It's the middle of the night, I just rushed some crappy tutorial notes to be distributed to firm mates for the tutorial I'm meant to be leading tomorrow, after catching about 5 hours of sleep and making it in for the early start (hopefully).

I desperately need help, yet I'm losing sight of what's important. I can only trust in one, yet time and again I choose to doubt Him. Why WL, why. why. why.

Please restore my sight, O great Ophthalmologist.

Neil and Alan

are both so very sweet. :)

Even when I can't understand the things that are happening in my life, I'm gonna believe that You are up to something good.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. ." Isaiah 55: 8-9

I believe that You are up to something good.

(:

Initially I came to the cluster to do my essay, but now I think I'm gonna go buy a card instead.

"Never lose contact, reassurance is key."

Last official day with mh and it feels like I've already left the heart even though I still have a week to go and will be back again for a week starting 6 Dec on the anaesthetic end. Nevertheless, it was still a good day. MH was in a strangely good mood, probably happy to finally get rid of us. D walked past and said "Hi Wen!" which made me stupidly happy. Then, we were sent to assess a post-op patient on ITU and MH trusted our judgment in saying the patient was fine! I, then, had to model for infective endocarditis. -_- Also got to watch a mediastinal lymph node biopsy which was dangerously cool (to me) and saw a pericardial window being made. Sigh, CT surgery, why are you so complicated and so cool and so unachievable.

After that I went to sit with ck in SKK's office. It was super weird sitting in his office when he wasn't even around but ck totally rocked the boss' chair :D I also erm, ended up not escaping in time so sat in on their audit meeting which again, was weird, but ok-weird, not weird-weird.

Then, rocked out best KFC in town with the gang (minus prawiradiradja), followed by oddono's and some interesting MnS tea. Sigh KFC, how I love theeee. Oh, erm, and you guys too. :D

where nelson and wellington meet, Sept 24.

Never a dull moment with Hayward.

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Why is it that when I'm already knee deep, I seem to be having a change of heart? I need to FOCUS and persevere till it's done. They say what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, well I'm sad to say this but what you aren't strong enough to do will only kill you.

well, little miss blueberry sponge, so are you (:

"if you are miss curry ice cream (which I don't think you are), then curry ice cream is one of God's great ideas too!"

a work in progress

that i am.

MH ROCKS

Made an effort to go in despite the tube strikes today and though it was a mixed experience, it was awesome because of MH. It was horrible in that I was constantly being nudged off the stool by a student nurse, and constantly being told off by the anaesthetics reg to "get out of the way" and again, being pushed off the stool, despite the consultant anaesthetist saying that it wasn't a problem at all. Why do people like to physically push me, can't you just ask me to move? Don't be fooled by my size, I can push you too, effortlessly might I add, I just choose not to. Will it kill you to be nice? It has been a tough lesson on love, I'm still trying.

Having said that, MH made the whole morning totally worth it. I guess after being ignored for pretty much the past many months, having someone who actually takes the effort to look out for you and want to teach you, it's just amazing. It's kinda sad how people not caring is the norm, and having someone show a bit more concern makes me so happy. Shouldn't a learning environment be like this most of the time? Anyhoos, CT surgery is so cool and so amazing. You know what's even cooler and more amazing than CT surgery? MH. MH ROCKS. ROCKS. ROCKS.