about time for an update i guess.. its been a while. back for about two weeks now, everything's alright. as some might have realised, im not as hyper and not as psyched up about anything really. which explains, the lack of updates. hurhur! cos i have nothing much to say. day in day out. time just passes as it passes. and i've been quite moodless.

life feels kinda weird without a few people in london, its a small number, about 4 to be specific, but they constituted majority of first year life. whether i knew them from concord or in london, the impact is there. i guess moving on is always hard, but time passes anyway and we just gotta move on. that's the reality of life. or rather, the beauty of life.

a huge sorry to everyone i've whined to about being so sien and complaining about the "lack of friends" (esp a certain tarobao) thanks for listening! though you all didn't really have a choice cos i wouldn't stop whining. but thanks, really appreciate it. no fears, the whining will cease.

so what have i been up to? since i've been back, one of the highlights would be the alton towers trip with er jie, yj and cynthia. it was quite fun, different from the first time, but still shiok nevertheless. another highlight would probably be da jie's bday! haziq brought us to this jap place called eat tokyo (i think) in golder's green, up north! yummy food! worth a try. for a proper update with pictures about these two events, read here.

also played tennis in london bridge area for the first time! free courts, even better quality than what we pay for in cartwright gardens, went to borough market, they have yummy burger! hurhur. and the first week of school just started, proud to announce, i didnt' fall asleep in any lecture, didn't even THINK of ponteng-ing the supposedly 3hour psychology lecture! which turned out to be just 1 hr, printing error. totally enjoyed collecting freebies in fresher's fayre. im sucha cheapo. hurhur.

thanks to da jie, i managed to change my phone contract. i couldn't pass credit checks for some unknown reason, maybe cos i haven't even been here 3 years. :( or maybe just because im a pauper. or maybe they just don't like my voice? or maybe its my hair. but yups, if all goes well, will be using orange instead of voda. orleng ah orleng. the network that is made just for me. the mega orange eater. woohoo! orlenggg~ and as some would know, i had big problems deciding which phone to get. hurhur! cos i figured it'd pretty much reflect on my character. whether to get a not-very-pretty phone with super good specs (the camera wahhh!) or get a supersuper pretty phone with rubbish specs (the camera sighhh) or.. or.. or. yah you'll see what i get in the end. hurhur. make a guess! i guess my character is rotten.

ooh this is getting kinda long and draggy. hurhur but since i'm in the page, might as well blog more to make up for the lack of updates. but yah if u're bored just don't bother reading lah im rambling liao. hurhur

another reason for the recent solemness, would probably be because of the huge amount of thinking i've been doing. not that i really like to think, as most would noe, i'd rather not and just be peabrained :D but because its the start of a new academic year. the fact that i progressed to 2nd year was a miracle, only by God's grace. so i figured, this is the year things have gotta change. gotta decide what approach im gona take to tackle the year ahead. which from here i can see, workload ten times heavier than before, social life ten times less busy. so i guess it kinda balances out. or not. not really the approach i wana take. that's why i've been doing the thinking.

firstly, how has God called me to serve in this new academic year. this isn't a matter of whether its in ocf or not. im thinking on a more wholistic view. having a God-centred life, this is a must must. secondly, how am i going to deal with my academics? last year was complete RUBBISH. and to make up for the rubbish, this year has to be completely SOLID. T_T thirdly, what commitments should i make. what sports should i do, what should i drop. what activities blah blah blah. rarhh! ok lah my thoughts are pretty much settled liao. hurhur.

prioritise, decide, act. simple as that.

no doubt i'll still be indecisive and still have no opinions about what to eat, where to go so don't count on me for that! hurhur wah i actually sound quite matured. hurhur how weird. ok lah this unhyper wenx will disappear soon and the hyperness will be restored in due time, watch this space!

i got a sinking feeling my blog is kinda dead. but like so many bdays coming up, i seem to only update on bdays. haha! not my fault really, who ask everybody's bday to clump together. hurhur. OH! happy belated bday xiongxiong :D haha.

ok im sleepy. over and out.

ps: helo KAWAN! sheffield shiok tak?

just for today, where there seemed to be

a lot less sunshine..

when you're sad,

always eat a hamburger.

When all seems grey and hopeless,
and dark clouds loom over you.

Look not just for the silver lining,

but also for His light that shines.

0909 - ninth september

on this very day, 19 years ago.. a very special person was born. my ex3rdlang classmate and then became my concord classmate in every single class except AS english and then more than a classmate, she became a good friend i never dared ask for after many many years of being classmates. (: because of one faithful night in easter 2005 she sat down and listened to me ramble about my life for a million and one hours sacrificing her sleep and watched me breakdown about something that seems so trivial now that i think back. and she picked up the broken pieces of me and put it back together with her ever so warm and helpful hands, bent down and lifted my heart, encouraged me and put me back on track. I never really said this properly, but, thank you, for being there, for being fun. exciting. wise, for being you.

Jennyjie (hurhur)!! happy birthday! (:

I really miss being in the same class as you. haha! remember our impressions of each other in third lang as being quiet and guai.. then only in concord we each realised that we're both totally UNquiet and UNguai! haha you're always spicing up chemistry class with singing and whistling with saadnah, never ending cornyness and well, one of the biggest brains around. haha! such a dear dear friend, i didn't even get to talk much to you when you were in London. hehe! maybe i'll go down to edin one day. shing and i had plans. hurhur! anyhows, hope to catch up with you soon, and hope you have a truly truly blessed year ahead. not cos of anything, but just because u're you. (: hughug!