I feel like I'm falling.
the MEQ was horrible, very much for me especially since i screwed up the only bit of sociology that i thought i could answer. only to realise i terbalikan my argument. ARGH what a waste of marks and time. and i really feel the july club coming strong. I actually felt like i put in effort to study this time round, probably the most i've studied in this life err except during PSLE time lah cos that time you not mugger, Mrs Chiang will somehow manage to make a mugger out of you. haha but it stills turns out this way. heh.
feeling quite rubbish, i took a sloowww stroll from the tube station back. took super long to walk up the sstairs. just became a super woogui everything also slow. decided to online for a while since i can't study when my mind is in a state of rubbishness. and of course, wooguiness. saw an overflooded tagbox. which was a nice feeling. and saw a tag from my dearest lamelaine. very happy cos i really miss her big donkey truckloads but always time zone clash. err and alice must have been really bored, oooh. but i like. heh.jiayou dear! may 30 will come soon. then we can all go and play allday long :) then dajie and zigster called. so nice of them even though they are on the way back already.
on msn, talked to pa and ma for a while. they kept telling me to go and rest, go and take a tea break, don't study now. i duno why they are always always so understanding and nice even though i've pretty much failed almost all my assessments till now, so if i said that today's paper was rubbish, i thought they probably just think "she never study again lah" or something. but they kept saying as long as you tried ur best, it will be alright. We will pray for you. which was something quite rare in the past, cos when i was young, err they never ever said that. but in recent years, somehow, they will reassure me when things feel horrible that I'm kept in their prayers and I'm very thankful for that, I really thank God.. but err they somehow believe that im the cleverest person on earth (er, on earth here kinda excludes their other three kids tho heh :P)
but that kinda made me feel worse to an extent, cos i myself know how i fared in the meq today. and everyone keeps telling me 'u so steady, sure ok lah'. err i want to clear a common misconception, im usually steady, err until exams come lah. my personality maybe quite steady lah, but academics wise, er i can go and sit in the dustbin already. i really feel that my [very small] brain like cannot make it in med school. er, but now's not the time to mope around and feel sian and lousy and whatever, cos i must make sure the remaining days are good. (: i want to go back mid june not mid july. july club will close down this year! come on rummies!! :D
boss was very encouraging when i was completely sian-ed out just now. boss shared a verse, which i will share with everyone, hopefully to encourage in times like these. and always. i'll leave you with the verse, and remember, God is far greater than all our tiny problems combined.
"The LORD will fight for you;
you need only to be still."
exodus 14:14
I feel like I'm falling.
Into the arms of a mighty God (:
the MEQ was horrible, very much for me especially since i screwed up the only bit of sociology that i thought i could answer. only to realise i terbalikan my argument. ARGH what a waste of marks and time. and i really feel the july club coming strong. I actually felt like i put in effort to study this time round, probably the most i've studied in this life err except during PSLE time lah cos that time you not mugger, Mrs Chiang will somehow manage to make a mugger out of you. haha but it stills turns out this way. heh.
feeling quite rubbish, i took a sloowww stroll from the tube station back. took super long to walk up the sstairs. just became a super woogui everything also slow. decided to online for a while since i can't study when my mind is in a state of rubbishness. and of course, wooguiness. saw an overflooded tagbox. which was a nice feeling. and saw a tag from my dearest lamelaine. very happy cos i really miss her big donkey truckloads but always time zone clash. err and alice must have been really bored, oooh. but i like. heh.jiayou dear! may 30 will come soon. then we can all go and play allday long :) then dajie and zigster called. so nice of them even though they are on the way back already.
on msn, talked to pa and ma for a while. they kept telling me to go and rest, go and take a tea break, don't study now. i duno why they are always always so understanding and nice even though i've pretty much failed almost all my assessments till now, so if i said that today's paper was rubbish, i thought they probably just think "she never study again lah" or something. but they kept saying as long as you tried ur best, it will be alright. We will pray for you. which was something quite rare in the past, cos when i was young, err they never ever said that. but in recent years, somehow, they will reassure me when things feel horrible that I'm kept in their prayers and I'm very thankful for that, I really thank God.. but err they somehow believe that im the cleverest person on earth (er, on earth here kinda excludes their other three kids tho heh :P)
but that kinda made me feel worse to an extent, cos i myself know how i fared in the meq today. and everyone keeps telling me 'u so steady, sure ok lah'. err i want to clear a common misconception, im usually steady, err until exams come lah. my personality maybe quite steady lah, but academics wise, er i can go and sit in the dustbin already. i really feel that my [very small] brain like cannot make it in med school. er, but now's not the time to mope around and feel sian and lousy and whatever, cos i must make sure the remaining days are good. (: i want to go back mid june not mid july. july club will close down this year! come on rummies!! :D
boss was very encouraging when i was completely sian-ed out just now. boss shared a verse, which i will share with everyone, hopefully to encourage in times like these. and always. i'll leave you with the verse, and remember, God is far greater than all our tiny problems combined.
"The LORD will fight for you;
you need only to be still."
exodus 14:14
I feel like I'm falling.
Into the arms of a mighty God (:
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